Saturday, June 4, 2011

#Mamavation Monday - No more selfishness

Next week's goal, a total of 9.62 miles.

Hi girls! What a week it has been. I am very proud of myself! 4 out of 5 days this past week I pushed myself to walk after work and wouldn't stop until I reached a mile. I know, a mile does not seem like much to most people, some of you are knocking that out in 7 or 8 minutes, but a mile for me is huge. At the end of my Mamavation Mom campaign I was up to 2 - 2.5 miles per workout/walk. After I got sick again, I got out of shape and out of my routine. So starting back up this past week was hard. Some walks I cried, I wanted to stop, sit down in the middle of the pavement and have a pity party. I kept remembering what I used to be able to do, what I was up to and I was hating my body for betraying me, for getting sick and sending me backwards on my journey. I am sure you all have noticed, when I get sick I retreat. I back away from help, support and anything that "reminds" me of when I was healthy. I get depressed when I am sick. And unfortunately I am depressed thats when my emo eating comes out. So normally while people with Ulcerative Colitis lose weight during a flare, I maintain or gain. So this past week, being under my calorie goal and getting in 4 (!!!) days of activity is a step up for me. I have made it a priority to go straight outside after my shift ends and walk on the track at work instead of going to the tanning bed. (I was loving that tan! Please don't flame me for going to the tanning bed!)

Now on to the title of my post. Selfishness. I was thinking today as I stared into my cabinet. My cabinet. The one where I hid my cakes, cookies and any other snacks I didn't want my husband or children to eat. I give a lot to my family, but a lot of time but there are things I do that are totally selfish. I spend time on this great invention, the internet instead of taking a walk with the kids or just going outside and playing. So my goal for this week is to be less selfish.

My other goal for this week is to walk at least 5.5 miles. I set a goal for myself of walking a mile in less than 20 minutes and Thursday night I walked a mile in 19:56. I was ecstatic but in extreme pain and was super tired. Most likely from lack of water, my calves have been cramping up horribly around 1/3-1/2 mile. It's aggravating me. Any suggestions?

To the Fitcation ladies, I loved watching every moment of your trip on twitter. I longed so badly to be there with you, and you can bet your butt, I will be at the next one!

What gaps in your nutrition knowledge do you want to fill?
I want to learn how to what really works for my body. Having a stomach issue really messes with my menu.

This week's weight:

Not quite as much of a loss ( -1 lb) as I was expecting but PMS is waning, water is still retaining, but at least I wasn't gaining! (LOL Poet, maybe I am meant to be!)

This post is sponsored by Omron Healthcare and I’m writing this to be entered into a Omron Go Smart Pedometer giveaway hosted by Mamavation


Anonymous said...

Great job this week! You bring up some great points about being selfish. I've been working on that as well, especially when it comes to getting out and being active with the kids. Regarding the cramping, I find that if I just stop at the nearest pole, bench (whatever!) to stretch my legs out a bit and then pick back up in my walk, it helps quite a bit. Have a great week!

pauline said...

congrats on getting out there and giving it your all. that's what matters. And yes! Drink more water!

Erin Patrick said...

Great job on the walking.
I am sorry you have been sick, I know how hard it is to go backwards due to injury/illness. It is definitely hard to deal with. I hope that you recover very quickly.
Good luck this week!

Tricia said...

I hear you on the walking. I have started walking at night also and yes there are times when I want to scream, cry and yell.

Or get out the cell phone and call someone to come get me. But we have to keep pushing ourselves.

We can do it.

Being sick makes things so much more difficult.

By the way. Great post.

Owen's Mom said...

I just love, love, love walking! It is the one activity I feel like I can do forever.

I am so proud of you for coming back and keeping up the fight for you and your health. Don't ever be discouraged. Starting is a step in the right direction. You will get back there, I know it! Just be consistent, persistent and optimistic.

Hoping you have a great week and PMS takes a few extra pounds with it! :)

Colleen said...

Congrats on getting out there this week! I know what you mean about things getting tougher after you take a break. This time last year I could easily walk a four mile trail which half was uphill in less than an hour, now I can only do three of the miles in an hour and I definitely feel it more. And depression can really effect how much I move.

Good luck with your goals and keep moving!

Jenn of said...

Your scale is still heading in the right direction. Congrats for the great work last week and good plan for next week.

Grace Matthews said...

Congrats on the weight loss. Don;t be so hard on yourself. The important thing is that you are getting out there and walking. You have to start'll be walking that 3 miles again in no time.

Anonymous said...

You are kicking butt and taking names. GO YOU!

lorrie said...

im so proud of you walking is so easy to do and aftward you feel accomplished, a great thing to use is daily mile i always log in my dog walks and it makes me strive to walk farther just to see how far i went when i get back. congrats on your weightloss hugs

@PamelaMKramer - A Renaissance Woman said...

Every mile counts! You stay with it!