Saturday, December 11, 2010

At the end of the tunnel... #Mamavation Monday

I can see a light... It's at the end of this long tunnel that I thought would never end. A tunnel that made my mind and body do things that were not normal. I know, this seems awful dramatic, especially since this "tunnel" I am referring to is basically my 3 month long relationship with that evil drug, prednisone. I had heard, before being prescribed this drug, that it could really mess with your system. The first couple of weeks, I thought, "Wow, this drug isn't so bad..." But here I am 3 months later, almost 20 pounds heavier, with a moon face and bloated belly thinking, "They were right!" And I will admit, I used being on this drug as an excuse from time to time to binge on foods because I had a raging appetite that would not, could not be satisfied some nights. But I can gladly say, that I am almost finished with this drug, my tapering schedule ends on December 31st and I will be free. No more crazy thoughts running through my head, no more weird hair growth (that's another blog post...), no more indigestion! 

I feel like I have let myself go... There were weeks when I was spot on with my diet and exercise and still gained weight, and it got to me. I kinda sorta quit. But I can't stay in that "quit" state of mind. I have a family to tend to, I have skinny jeans to get back in to, I have a wedding to help plan, and a bridesmaids dress to get in to in 4 months. I have a life to live. 

I am applying to be the next Mamavation Mom on December 15th. I have been in the sisterhood since July, and I am oh, so grateful for Leah, and all the sistas. There were times I avoided twitter, the thought of facing my sistas when I felt I had been at my worst made me feel so ashamed. But every time I confess I am met with nothing but compassion, encouragement and support. Wow. I never in my life imagined I would meet so many accepting, understanding women in one place. I love these ladies! 

I have a lot of weight to lose. I want and need the Mamavation Bootcamp to get me back on the right track, the track that leads to health, vitality, a happy me, and a healthy family. Keep an eye out for my Mamavation Mom Video Application on the 15th, and after you watch it, please tweet this to show your support for me!
“Hey @bookieboo! I want @christlikemommy to be the next #Mamavation Mom. She has my support! http://bit.ly/zqUxa”

Mamavation

11 comments:

gretablau said...

I was on prednisone for a week and I literally gained 5 pounds, so I can only imagine how hard it has been for you these past few months.

You kind of had to go into a holding pattern, and the new Mamavation campaign is coming up at the perfect time!

Always here for you and missed you a lot while you were hiding out!!

Jenn of PersonalFitCoach.com said...

I can only imagine the frustration you must have felt. So glad you are at the end of this tunnel. I'll be looking out for your Mamavation video and voting for you too! Good luck!

elenka29 said...

Kimberly,
You go, Girl!
I hope it gets better sooner rather than later for you. Do the best you can

MNMSpecial said...

I know what you mean about avoiding us all because you feel like you have just let yourself go, but we will always be here to support you through the THICK and the thin.
You can pick yourself back up and this next campaign is the perfect time for us to be there to share in your joys and frustrations.
Good Luck with your video!

bookieboo said...

You poor thing. Yes, we are here for you. XXOO

Colleen said...

glad you are getting off the prednisone...hoping all works out! You got my vote!

Janice - The Fitness Cheerleader said...

Oh my! How defeating is that? I'm so impressed with your determination Kimberly - keep up the great work and good luck!

kia said...

You have my support. I am glad you know we are all here for you. If you gained because you were slacking I would compassionately tell you so, however you have been on a drug that has taken a good deal of control away from you. What is going to be glorious to watch is how you respond once off of it. Consider yourself a phoenix rising from the ashes.

MrsFatass said...

Well, sistah, I can't think of anyone who would deserve one of those spots more than you, with all you've endured and all you have coming up. You've got my support AND my vote!

Owen's Mom said...

(Andrea - @notimeMom)
Yes! That is some rough stuff. Glad to hear you are at the end. Now, you are free to take your body back. Good luck with the campaign... I will tweet for ya!

Carrie said...

Yay that the prednisone is ending. Good luck with the Mamavation campaign, I can't wait to see your video. Have a great week.