I can see a light... It's at the end of this long tunnel that I thought would never end. A tunnel that made my mind and body do things that were not normal. I know, this seems awful dramatic, especially since this "tunnel" I am referring to is basically my 3 month long relationship with that evil drug, prednisone. I had heard, before being prescribed this drug, that it could really mess with your system. The first couple of weeks, I thought, "Wow, this drug isn't so bad..." But here I am 3 months later, almost 20 pounds heavier, with a moon face and bloated belly thinking, "They were right!" And I will admit, I used being on this drug as an excuse from time to time to binge on foods because I had a raging appetite that would not, could not be satisfied some nights. But I can gladly say, that I am almost finished with this drug, my tapering schedule ends on December 31st and I will be free. No more crazy thoughts running through my head, no more weird hair growth (that's another blog post...), no more indigestion!
I feel like I have let myself go... There were weeks when I was spot on with my diet and exercise and still gained weight, and it got to me. I kinda sorta quit. But I can't stay in that "quit" state of mind. I have a family to tend to, I have skinny jeans to get back in to, I have a wedding to help plan, and a bridesmaids dress to get in to in 4 months. I have a life to live.
I am applying to be the next Mamavation Mom on December 15th. I have been in the sisterhood since July, and I am oh, so grateful for Leah, and all the sistas. There were times I avoided twitter, the thought of facing my sistas when I felt I had been at my worst made me feel so ashamed. But every time I confess I am met with nothing but compassion, encouragement and support. Wow. I never in my life imagined I would meet so many accepting, understanding women in one place. I love these ladies!
I have a lot of weight to lose. I want and need the Mamavation Bootcamp to get me back on the right track, the track that leads to health, vitality, a happy me, and a healthy family. Keep an eye out for my Mamavation Mom Video Application on the 15th, and after you watch it, please tweet this to show your support for me!
“Hey @bookieboo! I want @christlikemommy to be the next #Mamavation Mom. She has my support! http://bit.ly/zqUxa”